Butterfly Wings

Well, I intended to write a follow-up ages ago. Last time I talked about my health/weight journey was almost two months ago!

At the time, I was aiming to be under 100kg by New Year - and I reached that goal. And was ridiculously happy about it. I managed to get a bit lower than that too, and during the last couple of months have hovered between 96 to 98, for various reasons. I had a 90kg goal for my birthday (almost two weeks ago) but didn’t get there. I’m OK with that. I’ve been a bit slack with the smoothies, but have had lots of salads - summer is great for that! I haven’t been totally vegetarian or totally raw, but have tried to maintain a high ratio of raw veg. Currently, my goal is to get back into the green smoothies more regularly, keep going with the salads, and plant lots of greens in the garden when the weather calms down a little. Right now it would scorch all the tender shoots, so we have some things in pots under shadecloth until it’s safer out in the sun.

Finally, I probably should explain today’s title. It’s not sarcastic

Over the last couple of months, I have received some compliments, or at least people noticing my weight change. For a person with life-long self esteem issues, this has been fantastic. While I have to keep reminding myself that I’m doing this primarily for myself, the health part also for my family - and that other people’s opinions shouldn’t matter - it’s still nice when people notice. Even people who normally don’t. Especially them!

I know the compliments can’t last forever, and I can’t keep relying on them to keep me motivated. That is why I have to remind myself that they’re just bonuses, and that how I feel is the most important gauge.